autumnleaf16

Author’s Note: Uso means both lies and lying.

It was raining…
The rain seemed strangely suitable, as she could recollect numerous tales where lovers had either part or reunite in the middle of some form of storm.
The hard droplets of water separated the weak links of the flowers on her head: the last garland Rin would be able to give to her personally. With great reluctance, she let the flowers slide down her hair- now loose from the usual white ribbon as he had took it- and eventually descend down.
Falling so fast that it was impossible for her to catch them.
She felt that the rain was taking away the few physical reminders she had of the past year. The crown of flowers was completely disintegrated now, and she could smell nothing but the bitterness of her tears amidst the rain.
Doing the right thing was hard, but having to come to term with her actions was even more difficult.
She did miss her friends, but she longed for him so much more, as he was the only one who could comfort her completely.
Kagome was a sweet and kind girl, true, but she was never able to understand her loneliness because she was always at the centre of attention by being the only one who could see the shikon shards, as well as being the most important person to at least two men- who would constantly fight over her. Even though Kagome would express embarrassment, Sango knew that she was secretly flattered, as every woman in such a situation would.
Inuyasha…she smiled slightly as she entertained herself with the idea of telling her hanyou friend that not only did she gave birth to his brother’s child, he also intend to make her his mate.
But this would not be happening anytime soon, even though Inuyasha forgave her generously for her previous crime of stealing tessaiga, she doubt that he could accept this news well. Although, she bitterly reasoned, would he really care that much, as his whole mind was dominated by Kagome and Kikyo.
Perhaps she was simply jealous that Kagome could be the most important person to the one that she loved, unlike her. Miroku…she was always wondering whether she was special to him due to his lavish attentions to all those other women, they were rarely alone as his eyes were always wandering.
Unlike Sesshomaru, who never shifted his gaze away from her.
As for Shippo…she was fond of him, but it was obvious that he was more attached to Kagome. To her, Rin had become what Shippo was to Kagome.

She knew that she should be grateful for the rain, as they washed his scent away from her effortlessly, as well as giving her a few more seconds before her friends would sense her. But his scents were a reminder too.
Taking a deep breath she gave Kirara the sign to appear in front of those that she had not seen for a whole year.
Inuyasha and Shippo seemed to have stayed exactly the same, as they were engaged in another of their famous food fights, not far away was Miroku, mediating or thinking about some new plans.
But right now, the only person she could see had altered was Kagome. The younger girl was still wearing that strange top, only that the colour was different. Likewise, her skirt was longer and of a finer pleat. Lastly, her hair was also much shorter.
“Sango-chan!” Kagome immediately buried her into a tight hug, accompanied by Shippo, neither noticing their friend’s nervousness. “Where have you been?”
“You better have a good excuse as we were all so worried!” Inuyasha butted in.
“Sango, I…” Miroku began at the same time, immediately realizing that she was looking at him in a different way…her eyes seemed slightly apologetic and rather cold.
Detaching herself from her friends’ embrace, she began to speak the lies that she had practised with Sesshomaru. The words should be convincing as she had repeated these words over and over until she finally managed to stop crying.
She made up a story of having lost her memory due to the shock of killing her brother after witnessing Miroku’s latest betrayal, and was saved by a hermit who looked after her until she finally recovered in every way.
“Then Kirara found me and at the sight of her I naturally remembered every thing…what I must do.” She ended. This was not a full lie as she was forced to consider how much longer she could hide with Kirara’s arrival.
Despite her practises, she was still rather nervous and even stuttered at one or two stages, but both Kagome and Shippo were so happy that she returned that they pushed away the possibility that she might have been hiding something. As for Inuyasha, he decided that he would accept what she said as the truth until they were proven to be lies.
The only one who was unsatisfied with the story was Miroku, because he still sought for the reason of why she refused to let him embrace her, as well as the cause of the change in the way she looked at him.
“What is it that you are not telling us, Sango?” he asked softly, even though he was desperately hoping that he was wrong.
He truly loved Sango, and he would never sleep with any other women due to her. The problem was that he was a fool by still enjoying the company of other females, as he was unable to resist accompanying a group of young girls the day after their engagement.
But he stopped all this when they found her gone, and he managed to stay true to his moral reform.
“Yes, there is something.” Sango said in equal softness. “Houshi-sama, I break our engagement because I am now engaged to another, to the hermit that saved me. And I will definitely marry him.”
“Sango…”
Suddenly, his broken voice angered her so much along with the slightly accusing eyes of the others. Why were they regarding her as having betrayed Miroku? He was the one who turned to other woman, while she had been driven to despair due to him. Why must she accept his infidelities in the first place? Why was she regarded as the one in the wrong when all she did was to love another when she closed her heart to the one that first broke it?
There were many types of love, and the truth was that a person must have their love returned in order to remain in love. That was why she was able to end her affections towards Miroku even though she once loved him, because Sesshomaru loved her, she would never stop loving him despite being apart from him.
“I did nothing wrong.” She stated as she walked away from them to take out the elaborate kimono that was probably his first gift to her and held it against her.
No, she was wrong, the kimono was not the first gift, it was her life. He had returned her life to her, that was the first thing he gave her. The kimono was the second gift, followed by his love, and then it was their daughter.
Their path crossed only to unwind, but surely they would meet again and remain together, because that was what they both most wanted.
It didn’t matter where they would be, as long as he was with her then she would be happy. There was also their daughter and Rin- they were like her family- what she thought she had lost forever when Kohaku finally died.
“I want only this now.” She whispered as she clutched to the kimono even tighter.

Author’s Note: I am sure I have mentioned this before, but this story’s main focus is on Sango and Sesshomaru, so this is why the others are kind of in the back ground. I think it become really obvious with this chapter, as even though the rest come out, they are not really important. Wow…first chapter where Sango is alone, next chapter would be Sesshomaru, no Sango. The opposite of this chapter. What happened is that this chapter is meant to be like this: Sango thinking, then sees her friend; Sesshomaru comes out- what he does will be shown in the next chapter; and then ends with Sango telling her story to her friends.

I think what Sango did would be quite hard for the rest to accept because in my opinion, Inuyasha and his friends are so tightly packed that you just feel that if Inuyasha and Kagome are going to be together, then Sango and Miroku would be together. So I guess if Sango choose to be with someone else, it almost seems that she is breaking the bond in their group. I don’t know, that is just my opinion. As for the views of love…I don’t know what I feel to that myself, personally I guess that is probably what happens in most case, but I also believe that it is possible you might just love someone forever even if they don’t return your love.

As for Miroku…what happened is that he was just flirting with other women, and that was it. I think Miroku would probably never stop flirting with others, but yet I think to an extent, he would be faithful to Sango in that sense- I really don’t think he would be sleeping with any other woman ever again. But yet I cannot help but to ask: why should Sango have to put up with that? Why can’t she have someone who will be faithful in every way? I guess that is one of the causes of my support of her being with Sesshomaru (along side various reason).

Lastly, there is the little detail of Kagome being in senior high school. That really is a…‘I’m doing this because I suddenly want to.’