I am actually taking a break from doing work, I am fixing the last bit of my history essay before I handed it in. It is an evil essay, as all essays tend to be, but this one especially. I was going to go to the giner cat's house on Wednesday but this essay prevented me from going, as I couldn't have finished it if I went out. Waaaaaaaaa..........I am so sorry!!! I really wanted to go but I honestly couldn't go (sob sob sob)
Speaking of history courseworks I had to read an article on Tristan and Isolde a few weeks ago, and now my view of the story is altered forever. I don't know why but i haver never liked that story at all, although it seems the kind of things that i will go "Awwwwwwwww..." about. But now...the article I had to read was discussing how people at that time had the ideal that the bodies of man and woman should be similar, so that bodies are genderless, and gender is conveyed through clothings instead. The examples beign how alike Trsitan and Isolde is, and if it wasn't for the clothes, you actually can't distinguish the bodies apart. etc etc. So yeah...seriously altered my view on the story forever!
Anyway, this is so sad but i will have to spend so much time in the library that people would almost think that I live in it. BUt it's because of these assignemnts, I will soon hand one in, then I have the rest of the holidays to do another one, before having to hand in another one after a few weeks. Sigh...I know every one is in the same boat but the trouble is that I will stress to much, that is why I have to start doing my work early, otherwise all hell break lose. (Speaking of studying I got my exam time table yesterday...it um...to summarize it in one word: sucks. I was tempted to use a stronger word but since it isn't that bad, it could have been much worse, I will control my mouth.
Although this is a fake holiday, it at least is days off university, so I have a few more time to myself (been watching Fushigi Yugi again, hahaha :) Although I will not be able to get it finished before the break end, that would be a bad idea too so I won't do that.)
But moving on to the second part of the title, yes, it is not a typo, I really am going to deliver a moral lecture. I realized this year how much a person learns when they are trying to teach someone, it really is amazing. I think it's like being a parent, you do this without thinking it is dangerous at all during the process, but as soon as your children do it, you all but have a nervous breakdown. To an extend I understand a bit more. But anyway...
I had a bit of a clash with a friend of mine, who will remain anonymous. But apparantly she was in some trouble when I texted her, and I failed to detect that her reply was a cry for help. (to my defence i had some sort of problems, ok it wasn't that important but still...) I probably made matters worse when I saw her next by telling her that she should be a bit more considerate to everyone else. How do I put it? Being inconsiderate is not the same as being selfish to me, I believe the first one is merely thoughtlessness, while the second one is maliciousness. So anyway she was a bit angry. But I realized what a hypocrite I could be, and I am disgusted with myself because I always said: I rather be a bitch then a hypocrite. But my friend was in a sense of martyrdom, which I often do. "I didn't do this although I wanted to becuase you will think I am selfish etc etc." I often not tell my friends my problems because I think I am being selfish by bothering them, but now I realize, it is better to tell them. But anyway, I hate to admit this but i did not have many sympethy for my friend, I told her that she should ask for help when she need to.
My conclusion is that we are not inconsiderate by asking others to help us, even though they would most likely have their own troubles, but we would be selfish if we blame them for not helping us especially when we do this in a subtle way. Which is what my friend did, which still kind of piss me off, because she blame me for not helping her, for not realizing. although the ironic thing was I only realized how mad I got when I got home.
And another thing that happened: this friend claimed she didn't blame me, wasn't blaming me, seh was just acting it as if she was. From her, this had happened before, there was another time when seh prenteded that seh was really mad with me, and then laughed at me from believing her. Not a good idea (I did that once and the result...still kind of feel bad whenever I accidently think about it. I don't even know if that person remembers what I did anymore but if you happens to read this: I am really sorry for what I did, I really didn't meant any evil or maliciousness.)
Ok...that is the end of my moral lectures. Off to complete my essay, then walk to the history departement. sob... Reviews on something next week! :)
Speaking of history courseworks I had to read an article on Tristan and Isolde a few weeks ago, and now my view of the story is altered forever. I don't know why but i haver never liked that story at all, although it seems the kind of things that i will go "Awwwwwwwww..." about. But now...the article I had to read was discussing how people at that time had the ideal that the bodies of man and woman should be similar, so that bodies are genderless, and gender is conveyed through clothings instead. The examples beign how alike Trsitan and Isolde is, and if it wasn't for the clothes, you actually can't distinguish the bodies apart. etc etc. So yeah...seriously altered my view on the story forever!
Anyway, this is so sad but i will have to spend so much time in the library that people would almost think that I live in it. BUt it's because of these assignemnts, I will soon hand one in, then I have the rest of the holidays to do another one, before having to hand in another one after a few weeks. Sigh...I know every one is in the same boat but the trouble is that I will stress to much, that is why I have to start doing my work early, otherwise all hell break lose. (Speaking of studying I got my exam time table yesterday...it um...to summarize it in one word: sucks. I was tempted to use a stronger word but since it isn't that bad, it could have been much worse, I will control my mouth.
Although this is a fake holiday, it at least is days off university, so I have a few more time to myself (been watching Fushigi Yugi again, hahaha :) Although I will not be able to get it finished before the break end, that would be a bad idea too so I won't do that.)
But moving on to the second part of the title, yes, it is not a typo, I really am going to deliver a moral lecture. I realized this year how much a person learns when they are trying to teach someone, it really is amazing. I think it's like being a parent, you do this without thinking it is dangerous at all during the process, but as soon as your children do it, you all but have a nervous breakdown. To an extend I understand a bit more. But anyway...
I had a bit of a clash with a friend of mine, who will remain anonymous. But apparantly she was in some trouble when I texted her, and I failed to detect that her reply was a cry for help. (to my defence i had some sort of problems, ok it wasn't that important but still...) I probably made matters worse when I saw her next by telling her that she should be a bit more considerate to everyone else. How do I put it? Being inconsiderate is not the same as being selfish to me, I believe the first one is merely thoughtlessness, while the second one is maliciousness. So anyway she was a bit angry. But I realized what a hypocrite I could be, and I am disgusted with myself because I always said: I rather be a bitch then a hypocrite. But my friend was in a sense of martyrdom, which I often do. "I didn't do this although I wanted to becuase you will think I am selfish etc etc." I often not tell my friends my problems because I think I am being selfish by bothering them, but now I realize, it is better to tell them. But anyway, I hate to admit this but i did not have many sympethy for my friend, I told her that she should ask for help when she need to.
My conclusion is that we are not inconsiderate by asking others to help us, even though they would most likely have their own troubles, but we would be selfish if we blame them for not helping us especially when we do this in a subtle way. Which is what my friend did, which still kind of piss me off, because she blame me for not helping her, for not realizing. although the ironic thing was I only realized how mad I got when I got home.
And another thing that happened: this friend claimed she didn't blame me, wasn't blaming me, seh was just acting it as if she was. From her, this had happened before, there was another time when seh prenteded that seh was really mad with me, and then laughed at me from believing her. Not a good idea (I did that once and the result...still kind of feel bad whenever I accidently think about it. I don't even know if that person remembers what I did anymore but if you happens to read this: I am really sorry for what I did, I really didn't meant any evil or maliciousness.)
Ok...that is the end of my moral lectures. Off to complete my essay, then walk to the history departement. sob... Reviews on something next week! :)
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